The cold

Running from the memories that cut his heart,
Pressured by the sorrow he feels from it,
Tortured by the misery he feels everyday,
And suffocated by the hate towards him.

Trying to escape with no hope,
There is no hope for him now,
Surviving on his own all his life,
With no one to guide him.

He tries to save himself,
His attempts go without success,
Alone and scared in this hateful world,
Soon to all come to an end.

Looking back at the fear he lived in,
He raises the blade to free him from his chains,
A single tear runs down his face and drops to the floor,
Reflecting all his pain in his cold isolation.

His vision starts to fade as a drop of blood joins his tears,
Falling down he cries in grief,
And then realizes that he will no longer be harmed,
For he is now safe from the cold.

Confusion2

Feeling cold and alone on the streets of my mind,
Unsure of the thoughts and feelings that I find,
My heart says hes but my head says no,
I don't know which way to go.

The world spins too fast for me,
Too fast for me to see,
My heart aches for what my mind blocks out,
Even though my heart is filled with doubt.

But my mind will control my heart,
This love will never start,
It no longer matters now,
It's just another thing my head wont allow.

Falling (free verse poem)

Looking up at the cold rocks that once held me,
Not knowing what is to come,
Blinded by the pain I feel in my mind and heart,
Crippled by the misery that envelopes my life,
The feeling of the air passing by,
Like hands reaching out trying to save me,
Ground rushing towards me so fast,
Like my torturous memories from the past.

Soon I will feel the sharp blade of death,
And break free of the chains that hold me,
No more will this life torment me,
Tonight I will escape all of this hate,
My soul will finally rest,
My screams will come to an end,
Looking down I see my cruel hard fate,
And what my life has driven me into.

The wind still rushes past me,
But now it feels quite different,
The hands that once reached out to save me,
Were just shoving me down all along.

And just before I hit the ground,
A final tear I will shed,
Reflected in that tear will be what I once was,
And in the ground I will see my freedom.

Another day

Lying now, in my field of misery and pain,
The grass is gray and no plants remain,
The cold wind of loneliness blows over me,
The dust of my hearts decay blows free,
Overtaken by sorrow masked by my mind,
People laugh for my conscience is blind.

Crying now, in the shadows I hide within,
Hateful words written on my skin,
Covered in the dirt of lies,
Watched by hateful eyes,
Trapped by the chains of fate,
There is no hope for me, it's too late.

Screaming now, in my pit of despair,
Even thought no one will care,
Falling to the ground wishing it all away,
Reduced to nothing but societies stray,
Shutting my eyes, everything fades to gray,
Leaving me to suffer another day.

Painted red

He drops the blade painted red,
Happy that he'll soon be dead,
The pain he's felt throughout his life,
has come to an end with the edge of his knife.

The torturous misery he's had to endure,
Sliding away now because of his cure,
The memories that he had to face,
Leave his mind without a trace,
And when his thoughts finally end,
The would it left will finally mend.

No longer trapped by his suffering mind,
The escape from this he will soon find,
By taking his life tonight,
He see's that things are finally right.

Now as he lies in his pool of distress,
And see's his life as just a mess,
And as the light fades from his sight,
He starts to slip into eternal night.

Relaxed now he is free,
And now his future he can see,
He drops the blade painted red,
Happy that he'll soon be dead.

Not for long

All I see is misery,
All I hear is screaming,
All I fell is pain,
Not for long...

Walking alone through the forest of my tears,
Surrounded by my pain, my hatred and my fears,
Hidden by the darkness flowing from my soul,
Running now I've lost control.

Looking around at what my life has come to,
The hatred and torture I've succumb to,
I cannot see anything but my own life,
The suffering and misery reflected in the blade of the knife.

The trees are dead and the animals lie still,
For tonight my blood shall spill,
Cold steel against cold dying skin,
And then the world begins to spin.

I stumble now through the night,
And the forest starts to to fade from sight,
The pain and fear drifts away,
The color fades to gray,
Grasping the air as if to be awoken from the nightmare,
But then I realize that no one is there,
And as I stop my desperate plea,
I notice that I have finally been set free.

Tonight I'll die

Im living a lie Tonight I'll die, And with my last breath I'll say... All the hate, all the pain, What makes me fucking insane, There is no fix there is no cure, I will never feel secure, Torture me, Scar me, I dont care, Its only fair. Shadows are what lie ahead, My future is to lie down dead, Now my eyes slowly close, And my breathing starts to slow, All I can say is goodbye, Tonight is the night I will die.

Hatred

Now that the love is gone,
And darkness settles in,
I feel no compasion for you now,
I feel no sympathy,
No empathy,
I dont care for your feelings.
All i've ever done is rape your feelings,
When i see you i feel a dark pain,
Where there was once love there is now hatred and loathing.

Confusion

I walk the road spinning so fast,
I have another thought though it will be my last.

My head spins,
I burn in my sins,
My eyes ache,
With the last step i take,
I can see a light,
Though i fade in the night,
No hope for me now,
But i'll find a way somehow.

All I feel now is confusion,
Living in an illusion,
I take my last look around,
Knowing I will never be found,
I walk in the rain,
I feel the pain,
I dont know whats going on,
My senses are gone.

I claw at my skin,
Trying to stop the spin,
My mind is dead,
All thats left to be said,
Is how my life will end,
If i cant mend,
The confusion.

Take it

Take my heart,
And rip it apart,
Take my mind,
And make me blind,
Rip out my soul,
And spit in the hole,
Take what makes me bleed,
Take whatever you fucking need,
Its all gone now,
I dont know how,
All I know is the feeling of the blade,
And the trail it made,
Theres blood on the knife,
Because I took my life.

No one hears

I cant keep living this lie,
Every night I cry,
No ones really known,
How i feel all alone,
With my voice,
I can keep myself company.


I want to die,
But all I can do is cry,
I cant stand the pain,
Im driving me insane,
On the inside im screaming,
But no one can hear.


I want to break free,
But im locked up and there is no key,
My hearts trapped in itself,
But im trapped within myself,
With my legs,
I can run away.

I have no where to run,
My pain will soon be done,
I cant take this life,
My only friend is my knife,
With my arms,
I can kill myself.

You will never see me again

The poison i've been fed
The lies that i've bled,
The pain that stung my heart,
The moment we drifted apart,

Every moment i cant replace,
Every moment i try to erase,
I wanted you to return,
I could never learn.

I never thought that you'd be gone,
Your love for me now withdrawn,
I just dont know how,
I could love you now.

It doesnt matter now,
I will never allow,
You to love me again,
My love for you begins to drain.

And when you miss me most,
I'll be dead.

The end

I cant live with your lies,
I cant live with your cries,
I cant live with this pain,
I cant live with your insane,
I cant live with all this.

I cant stand this place,
I cant stand seeing your face,
I cant stand having you here,
I cant stand you my dear,
I cant stand all of this.

I cant survive like this,
I cant survive with just a kiss,
I cant survive with only a frown,
I cant survive when you kick me down.
I cant survive.

I never knew

You had always been there,
I just wasnt aware,
I never knew that love could be withdrawn,
I never knew... until you were gone.

It stings deep inside,
I can no longer hide,
It wont leave me alone,
The pain that i've always known.


I cant get free,
I now see,
I thought i had escaped,
Until my heart was raped,
By you.

It will be over

I am not part of this trend,
I have already sealed my end,
Everything that has gone down,
Everything that made me frown,
Will be forgoten.

I cant survive on all these lies,
Everytime i looke into your eyes,
I see that you dont care,
I know you wont be there,
At the worst of times.

This is the last time you see,
This is the last you'll see of me,
When you finish destroying my life,
I will have finished with my knife,
It will be over.

To my demise

Burried in my life again,
Suffocated in pain,
Tortured by my past,
Got to escape it fast,
You dont care about me and we both know it,
I could end it with one quick slit,
I dont give a fuck,
I am all out of luck,
Infected by your lies,
Leading me to my demise.

I just want all the pain to stop

I have no one left anymore,
You had to hurt me some more,
You couldn't just leave me alone,
Now my heart is buried in stone.

It hurts it stings,
I suffer under all the sorrow it brings,
Beaten down by what I've become,
Broken by what you've done.

You could never feel how i feel,
The pain i can never reveal,
You'll never know how much it burns,
When everything you've blocked out of your life returns.

I hate my life i want to die,
All you told me was one big lie,
It goes away with each blood drop,
I just want all the pain to stop.

Im Fine

See what i've become?
My mind is numb,
Soul filled with hate,
No appologies its too late,
It's ok, lets restart,
Even though you broke my heart,
I'd give you a second chance,
But you'd put me in another fucking trance,
I dont know how i trusted you,
I guess i never knew,
How cruel you could be,
Im fine cant you see?

Jump

He approaches the edge thinking of the end,
Looking back on what he once called his life,
He doesn't smile, he doesn't laugh,
Instead he frowns and prepares for the jump.
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The looks far away but seems so close to him,
Tears run down his cheeks and off onto the ground,
Trapped in a box of his pain trying to break free,
Body aches as he takes a step onto the air.
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Looking around as he falls preying for someone to catch him,
There is no turning back and no one to save him,
He screams out and realizes that he is now free,
He relaxes and lets the ground strike him.
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Fucking end it

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Go ahead and leave me to die,
I don't care i want it to end,
If i have to take my life,
You can have it.
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You wont do it you'll be fine you will say,
I don't give a fuck about your words,
I can do it my own way,
Life is the jail that imprisoned me.
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I don't have to take this shit,
I don't have to hear this shit,
The lies and deceit i grew up with,
Just trained me to hate myself.
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I'll take my pain away

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I dont need this shit you call a life,
I can fix it right here i can end it all right now,
You corrupted my mind and poisoned my heart,
Hoping i would see it your way.
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Well i dont give a fuck about myself,
And i know you dont give a fuck either,
So why drag this on and on?
When we can put a stop to it so easily.
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I have nothing left i have no one left,
I feel nothing but pain,
My life is short and you know it,
I'll take my pain away.
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Take it

I can take this pain away,
The pain i feel every day,
I know you dont care,
I know i dont care,
This life i fucked up so badly,
This life i will take so gladly,
I dont need your sympathy,
I dont need your empathy,
I cant live with your lies,
All thats left are goodbyes.

Ending

As tears stream down his face,
he shuts his eyes,
waiting to leave this place,
left in the dust for the flies.

The blade draws near,
brought in by his suffering and pain,
standing there with no fear,
with blood dripping from the vein.

He drops to the floor,
blood leaking out,
his life is no more,
and nothing to think about.

now theres blood instead of tears,
as he leaves his life behind,
the light disappears,
a life no longer confined.

My dark side

Fists clenched,
Mind wrenched,
Heart broken,
Words unspoken,
Cant get out,
Drowned in doubt,
Haunted by the past,
Pain will always last,
Never-ending torment,
Suicidal intent,
Slash across the wrist,
Blood spirals to the fist,
Drops hit the floor,
Until there is no more,
Body on the ground,
Never to be found.

Put an end to it

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You forced me through this stupid life,
Giving me nothing but bad advice,
I can't keep living now,
I just don't know how.
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I'll die tonight,
Kiss me goodnight,
I can't go on,
I'll soon be gone.
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Now i pray,
To get away,
From this pain,
I must abstain,
From life
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Pain

He never smiled,
he was always sad,
unlike a normal child,
his mind kept him mad.

The pain that enveloped his life,
squeezed his heart tight,
as the blood leaked from the vein to the knife,
he shut his eyes and said good night.

Now the dark angles will come,
and take him where he fits in,
their songs of death at a low hum,
to live forever in sin.